'Bachelor' Star Ben Higgins Reveals He Had a 'Breakdown'

Ben Higgins is getting candid about his life.

The 32-year-old reality TV star, who starred on the 20th season of The Bachelor after appearing on the 11th season of The Bachelorette, got candid about his mental health in an interview on former Bachelorette Trista Sutter‘s Better Etc. podcast.

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“I am back in Indiana right now because of a breakdown, again, in my life where I’m going, ‘I don’t know what’s happening. I don’t know what this next season of life looks like for me,’” he explained.

“I’m farther and farther removed from the show, and at the same time, I need to figure out what my life is going to look like and what my legacy is going to be,” he continued.

“It’s also really hard because I’m at a low place. I don’t see myself as this thriving figure right now. I’m kind of lamenting and separating myself from a lot of things that I have held close,” he went on to say.

He also said his time on the show led to him “building an identity around that. I started to really feel like, ‘Oh, my gosh, this is the thing that I was needing to fill me, this is the thing that will change the rest of my life, I’ll be in the in-group forever now.’”

However, he began to feel his “lustfulness toward fame” had “started to fade.”

“I started to try to reach to stay relevant… and the more I did that the more I lost myself… the more I was living, not just for other people, but just for other people’s attention, not even to have a connection with them,” he said.

Another alum would like people to stop associating him with the franchise.